I suppose I should finally mention him :) He's well someone I've gotten to know over the last three months and I guess I'm pretty besotted by him. He has drawn me three fantastic pictures: Touche Turtle, Dum Dum, and Garfield. Wrote me two poems and has given me one of his favourite books ever to borrow. He also gave me an MP3 player with all his favourite songs on for me to listen to, he spent all nearly all night doing it.
Callum is beautiful, Vicky says I'm not aloud to call men that but I'm going to anyway. Because it's true :)
But he's also a complete and utter numpty, he is amazing at art, so precise, and a pretty good writer. He denys this all. It infuriates me. :)
I'm worried though, he's been through hell and I don't ever want to add to that. This has all also come at the worse possible time as I'm leaving for Uni in a few weeks. I started packing last night. I'm determined to make this work but I don't know if it will. Also I came to realise that had I chosen Newquay Uni as my first choice then I could be spending the next three years maybe with him. As well as Mia and Charlie. Yet I so want to get away from Cornwall, from my family. They are absolutely draining my energy. The only things I have to look forward to in a day are my friends, Callum and the thought I'm going to University.
Life never really spans out the way you want it to.
I am so tired at the moment as well as this Tanisha's Funeral is on Friday :/
Ambrose is recovering which is good but my family just making out that I'm a terrible person for going out for a day. Yes I love him allot, but they're making out that I would stay home every single day and every time he has a check up if I truly loved him. Its impossible :/
But yeah that's it really :)
Hi there, TG
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear about Ambrose, given your concern about him. I don't think you need to stay with him all the time - cats are fairly independent creatures, and they don't need "their" humans around the way dogs do.
I'm glad to hear about Callum too - it sounds as if you have needed someone like him in your life for a while. I agree, men can be described as beautiful, whether it's in body or in character. I think Callum, like a lot of people, probably doesn't the talents he has that others don't; or, depending on what sort of hell he's been through, he may not think very much of himself anyway.
I understand why you're moving away to university, and it really does sound as if getting away from your family will be good for you. I hope you can keep things going with Callum - long-distance relationships can work, but it takes quite a lot of effort and determination. I think you just have to talk to him about it and work out what you're going to do.
Take care
Mark
Moving away will do you some good though, every body likes a fresh space every now and then. Think of all the people who you'll end up meeting...
ReplyDeleteHope everything goes okay on Friday. :/ Look after yourself x