The one thing I want to change in 2014 is my father. I know ive said time and time again about how much of a selfish drunk he is but its getting worse to the point where he's a thug and im scared of being in the same room as him. He discusts me, and I now know I no longer love him like I did. My own father! All I ever do is hate him for the distress he causes me and my family. If he truely loved me he would stop or at least try for me, his daughter. But no. He'd rather slowly kill himself than spend time with me. It hurts me more than words can express because it makes me realise that not only did my mother abandon me but now my father. Am I so awful a person that I don't deserve the simple unconditional love and care of parents? People that have both or one parent have no idea how lucky they are.
I dunno. I just hope maybe one day he might realise how much I need him, how much my grandparents and my auntie need him to sort his life out.
Not exactly a cheerful subject but yeah sorry.
Have a happy new year everyone!
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